Those who love at first sight are traitors at every glance

Sometimes, you get so good at dodging bullets that you forget their existence around you. A sort of subconscious, but very convincing sense of invincibility settles in and you forget just how badly you can get hurt.

Then one day, slashing through the curtains of your placid world and landing right into your heart, that piece of sorrow reminds you of your contingent reality.

Such............. is life

Bio test.......1 chapter down 2 to go, yay!

Research......ahhh still need to read up on the 2 scientific papers on the protocols for signature tagged mutagenesis

Chem......somehow I managed to unlearn everything I knew about chemistry........hmmm maybe Billy has a point..........rethink about Austin?......mmmmm maybe

psych.....went to class 8 times in the semester.......4 times to take the test and 4 times to know the grade..............97 average

labs are useless and annoying...................

Zen Faulkes..............he's  canadian and my research supervisor and a neurobiology prof...................he's entertaining

what else..........life's interesting.............still need to go see happy feet 

Boys are...................ya.....



It's 5:18........I should go back finish those two chapters, test to take at 9:45 

what's everyone else upto?

Current Location: home
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: before the night is over

hmmm let's see I'm pretty busy these days.
Classes are easy. Research....not so easy

I'm involved with some research work which is pretty exciting.

Bio- I'm supposed to be doing a comparitive study on feeding behavior of starfish here to that of california.....(Apparantly they aren't filter feeders) So in order to that ,we need........well starfish. And it's taking waaaaay too long to to get them. You'd be surprised just how freaking complicated it is just to get the project started. In the meanwhile, my research supervisor, who is uber cool by the way, asked me if I could help in doing some DNA sequencing of tunicates......ya I'm as clueless as you are on how the hell to do that, but apparantly since it's a new DNA sequencer,  the faculty is as lost as I am so it's going be blind leading the blind.  "Hey if you already knew what you were doing then it wouldn't be resraech now would it?".........did I mention Dr. Faulkes is awsome?

Moving on to....

Chemistry-  Now is the cool stuff. I'm doing some mutagenesis work with Bacillus thuringiensis...which in english is that I'm doing some genetic altering to this type of bacteria,which is a very very cool biological insecticide. The professors say that maybe (and this definitely is a maybe) we can introduduce some cancer cells and see if the genetically altered Bt attacks them leaving the good cells alone. So that would definitely be cool.
The downside.........there is a shit load of training, and I mean real genetic, spectroscopy, bacteriology and god knows what training tro be done before we can start this. 

So life is busy but fun.

The world that looks endlessly grey
The life that wrongs you day after day
The heart that aches for a beautiful dream
The soul that shivers from a sight unseen
The words are spoken, nothing left to say
The heart that wonders
Why those eyes looked away
The ears that would rather believe the lies
The fool who wonders why his soul cries
The sun that shines only to set
The people we love and conveniently forget
The fights we fight only to fight
The wrongs we know will never be right
The people who lift up our spirits and soul
From whom the tragedy takes all its toll
The lonely boy across the street
The strangers we see and the people we meet
Stuck in a limbo between fact and fiction
Yet we dare to live with such conviction
A life that depicts
Everything contradicts
Yet still every morning to the unknown
I wake up in a cheerful tone
Because sometimes those strangers bring me joy
Because sometimes I smile at across the street boy
Because sometimes things really are what they seem
Because sometimes reality beats the most perfect of dreams

From Shakespeare to Spielberg, we have repeatedly seen the almost contemptible enormity of appreciation dispensed to arists for discovering the connection that binds the audience and the art into a single thread
. That connection is our feelings based on experiences. Now this connection is entirely acceptable and even applauded when one shares somewhat similar experiences, but when art so to say starts dictating the attitude and feelings toward circumstances, then we know that something went wrong along the way. Why do we weaken the magnitude of problems a teenager is facing just because it is common? All the strange and twisted things that you hear people doing.ever wondered if all of that is just a cry for attention. Attention that is needed, attention that should not be robbed just because it is diagnosed. "He just needs attention", should not be an excuse for people to ignore the problems. Am I blaming the media for most societal problems? You bet I am. Whether you agree to it or not, when Michael Vartan falls for Drew Barrymore in Never Been Kissed, it just made it ok for two good looking people to fall for each other, ignoring all the social and moral responsibilities and regulations that are placed on them, making an already fragile teacher- student relationship, even more precarious. When we see the swashbuckling in Cut Throat Island, it makes it ok for many people to kill without emotion just because they dont personally know the victim. Do people go out and kill just because they saw it on the movie, no. But subconsciously an already escalated desire to end someone is pushed to toward the edge because Tom Cruise did it in Mission Impossible. Maybe entertainment is just an excuse to do something that would have been done anyway. But to consider even that statement, we have to agree that entertainment has reached a new level in our lives. A level higher than just a part of life.. it has become our lives. It dictates fashion, it dictates, speech, it dictates individuality, it even dictates the rules of society. I wonder how such a monumental transition was made anyone noticing it, I wonder how we let life imitate art instead of the other way round.
This is the world of entertainment. Whether we like or not, it has taken over our lives, our society, our emotions and our dreams.

Current Location: utpa library
Current Mood: busy

I guess writing about college is what I'm supposed to do now. Nothing special. I see a LOT of scitech people everyday. Classes are ridiculously easy.....as expected. I don't really know people in some of my classes which isn't cool, but I always find someone to hang out with. I miss certain people who've left.
I met a few, and when a say a few, I mean a few.... new people who are pretty fun to hang around. But it's just the first week. Let's how this year turns out.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: volcano .....damien rice

What is a soul?

What does it mean to you?

I came to realize recently that the word soul in my diction is used as a mere connotataion to depth, usually of a philosophical kind, like a deeper layer to life.

But what really is it?

I wonder what everyone thinks when they speak of this "soul".

Current Location: home
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: coldplay

Yet again my heart wonders why

The only thing I want is all they deny

Everyone knows just how to win

Only I seem to be paying for my sin

The world, as a cynic I can blame

But my battle with destiny remains the same

Caught in a crusade against time

I see that opportunity window sublime

Before the darkness penetrates to my soul

Before the world takes its toll

Before the sun falls through the sky

Before I need to say goodbye

Theres something I want you to know

When life wouldnt even spare me a low

You were the high I lived for.

You said I loose to you my heart

When winning seemed a distant art

When this pitiless domain scorched my core

You brought me up from my knees

Touched me gently like the cool summer breeze

No garden of Eden, no paradise

No reverence to Inferno beyond my demise

You are my savior, that breath of life

The emancipating kernel of my strife

Did anyone catch the Brazil vs Croatia game?
This was my first World Cup game, of course because my favorite team was playing.
I'm disappointed.
Ronaldo should have....well atleast freaking moved
Good to see Ronaldino and Kaka in action.
Anyways as expected Brazil won and made thier record of never losing the first game in the World Cup since 1938.
It was fun to watch anyways

Current Location: home
Current Music: I think about you......Bryan Adams